about my self and a question.

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leylani delahentyregistered
at 06/13/2007, 18:31:26

Hi Hans,

I found your website when I typed in the flow of love and God. I was getting frustrated because I thought nobody understood what I was talking about. I am very happy to find someone who dose. I will tell you a little bit about my self. I am a 23 year old woman and I live with my father behind an art gallery. I am very creative and very sensitive on every level. I have had a very difficult time dealing with my sensitivity. I am on a disability pension because of all the problems I have had and cannot work. To name a few problems anxiety, depression, chronic fatige and sensory defensive. I have been very spiritual all my life but only started following it seriously for the past 2 years. 2 years ago I had a break up with my boyfriend of 3 years and had a spontaneous kundallini awakening of some sort. Following that I discovered I had this other sense it had been there all along but I just thought it was something wrong with me. I did not realize it was both inside and out side of me. I realized I could feel other peoples emotions so I was not only feeling my pain but everybody's pain I came in contact with. At that time I was going to night clubs and drinking and smoking I stopped it all instantly when I realized the damage it was doing to me and started going to the forest every day. I realized that I could feel the energy of trees and that it was healing me. For a year I searched for the truth never in books but in nature and within my self I thought books would only confuse me. I came to a stage where I felt so vulnerable and unprotected from the dark world around me I was going to go deep into the forest and hide from the world. But just before I left my parents split up. My dad had been angry and unsupportive of mine and mum's spiritual path. Then he told me that God had come to him and that all I had to do was ask and be thankful and he would come to me. 2 days later he did and I was in bliss. Other peoples pain did not affect me any more the more the person was in pain the more love I felt. But then mum did not come back and did not believe me and went to bed four days after with my very good friend rami and they both betrayed me. When mum said she did not believe me I felt the flow of love cut and I screamed. It has been 9 months since then and I have been struggling desperately to get it back. I don't want to live with out it I feel like a snail without a shell. It is hell with no love. This is a very rushed version of my story there are many profound things that have happened to dad and I, and I would love to share them with you and every body. Can you help me?

Love and God bless
Leylani

Replies To This Message:

God is Love To get the flow of love and protection by God back you need to forgive your mother hans51 1 2007-06-13
rami and mum have no love leylani delahenty 1 2007-06-14
God is Love A child has absolutely NO right to deny a love relationship of mother of father with a new partner ! hans51 1 2007-06-14
Another question leylani delahenty 1 2007-06-14
God is Love God loves all - God's love is beyond and above compassion! hans51 1 2007-06-14
compassion leylani delahenty 1 2007-06-15
God is Love Basics first hans51 1 2007-06-15
thank you leylani delahenty 0 2007-06-15

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